Immersed in embarrassment

Hye peeps!
I just wanna say that today turns out to be the unluckiest day throughout my whole life in school. My inability to think well and speak well results me in losing my own control. It turns out I'm not giving the person the answer she wants. The whole class display their sarcastic faces. How am I going to face them this whole two year?
I'm so dying that I wish they would have amnesia. Please forget my bad moments just now. I was having a tough time. 😥

This starts when Pn Yoges ask me what does the grandmother feels to look her own death in the eye? Confidently,I said she is frightened to die. Teacher starts showing her Really?!! Face. Then I gave her my spare answers. Her face shows it all. She's not looking for my answer. Instead,someone who sit on the back got it correct. She surely said the grandmother is fearless as she awaits of her own death. I was startled as II hea the answer . How come she knows the answer?? Am I to blundered? I am scared to face my classmates as Im very sure  everyone will downgrading me of my fault.

I need to stop stalking them in ig as this will make me feels useless. I'm really envy of them. They do speak well,instead I am here sputtered my words everywhere. Please motivate me guys! I need your support!

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Being an irresponsible librarian.

Hey I'm a librarian. I hate books so why did I choose to be one? Simple answer, I merely wanted to take part in school activities,but I am inactive. So,being a librarian is an escape. It's the instant way for me to get extra marks for curricular activities.

Although I have no enthusiasm of being a librarian,I still do my job of keeping the library clean,neat, and helping the teachers by processing new books and all. I still don't know why the teachers aren't acknowledge my hardwork and sacrifices. They simply said they've never seen me doing a job of a librarian. Aiyoo, I was so geramm!! At least cakap lah perhaps when you were cleaning, I was teaching. That's why I don't see you. Alamak. So what's the point of me went to school in the early morning when I actually should be sleeping soundly at home? Ps: I am a student for an evening session. How can the teachers never put an effort to grant us the gratitude of our hardwork? 

Please, I hope everyone would never assume someone of being so thoughtless of their responsibility. You never see what good deed they might have done. You might make them sad and hopeless of their job. At least , keep an eye on them and thank them for their time and energy they served to done their duties.

Wallahualam

Kau dah kenapa??

Hye.

Dalam dunia ni,mesti ada orang yang baik dan dan yang buruk. Semua orang nak berkawan dengan orang yang baik,sebab apa? Sebab mereka boleh membimbing kita untuk menjadi lebih baik. Betul tak? Tapi macam mana pulak tentang kawan yang luarannya baik sedangkan hatinya menunjukkan sebaliknya?

Aku paling tak berkenan dengan orang yang post gambar aku buruk-buruk. Aku sendiri tak sanggup nak tengok muka aku. Macam mana diorang boleh tahan nak post muka aku yang sebegitu rupa dalam ig. Kalau ig kau 50 org followers takpe, ni 500 followers. Malu aku der. Kau tak pernah terfikir ke kau boleh malukan orang lain? Tak pernah terfikir ke apa kesan akibat perbuatan kau tu? Tolong lah,aku tak suka lah korang letak muka aku tanpa kebenaran. Aku tak sangka korang sanggup buat macam ni. Aku sedih kot,tak sangka kau sanggup post muka aku yang macam hantu. Lain kali letak la filter, jangan lah post muka aku camtu. Dahla aku ni senang insecure dengan kecantikan orang. Lagi2 , dalam kelas tu ramai lawa-lawa.Bila lah ig story kau tu nak expired?

Ha korang,ni merupakan satu perkara daripada benda yang aku benci gila2 tahap gaban.

Must you do that?

I feel like Ive found the new apple of my eye.I think he is well-suited for me.I think he's the best of the best despite his baby looking face. I don't know why he had to disappoint me this hard.

He showed signs of liking me.I was not comfortable at first,then I began treating him nicely. Then,he did it to another person,I was taken aback.I start not to trust him any further.

Even when I try hard not to fall for you again,Im ignoring you everytime, you still do your sweet talk attitude. I hate it ! I dont like to live in false hope. You aren't someone whom I can be with. You aren't someone who I can trust.I really despise your action and your attitude towards me. Please don't make any girls leave their hopes on you. Just have a girl,and treat another girl normally, not treating them real friendly which could cause into misunderstanding. I really hope you could stop your sweet-talk towards me.

Please,for your future, do not make someone disappointed in your action. You could live with a happy life,but how about their lives who lived in a false hope? Have you ever think about it?

For the best of my future, I won't like anyone anymore and I will just focus on my studies. I will get the best score. Liking and loving you won't benefited me in any way.So,through studies,my standard will overshadow my weaknesses.

Hisy! Benci! Benci! Benci!

Aku benci sangat orang yang suka banding-bandingkan seseorang dengan orang yang lain.Terutamanya bila dapat keputusan peperiksaan. Mesti ada manusia-manusia yang gatal nak tahu markah orang. Bila dah tahu,dia diam .. tu takpe. Ini bila dia dah tahu,dia kepoh lepastu dia calculate markah orang tu  and sesuka hati je tentukan ranking orang dalam kelas. Makcik bawang seyh dia tu.. tapi,masalahnya yang buat tu bukan perempuan
Tapi.. Lelaki.. kau rasa??!

Aku ni kalau boleh memang tak nak share markah dengan sesiapa.Only to my close friends je lah.

Aku ingat yang aku tak share markah BM je dengan mamat tuh.But then,how come dia tau markah aku??! Nak tahu kisah dia?Macam ni sebenarnya..

Dia datang meja aku,pastu dia kata aku dapat 73 kan BM, aku pon angguk je lah. Masa tu dalam otak fikir,aku dah bagi tahu dia rupanya. Lepastu,tetiba terfikir macam mana dia tahu.. so aku tanyala. Kau ni membawang dengan siapa,kau tahu markah aku semua? Nak tahu? Dia punya jawapan punya lah sakai. Dia kata"aku dapat 74,mestilah kau dapat 73" Eee... suka hati ko je nak merendah-rendahkan aku.

Kau tunggu jelah!
Aku datang berperang dengan kau berbekalkan ilmu yang penuh di dada !!!

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Adakah Aku yang Bersalah ?

i only befriend with girls *dreaming for sorority society

Aku ada seorang je kawan lelaki yang aku 'friendly' dan selesa nak berkawan. Dia tu kawan ngan aku pon sebab dulu2 aku score the best dalam kelas. Dia selalu la datang tempat aku tanya aku macam mana nak dapat results yang excellent la bla bla. Lagipun,di duduk belakang aku je,so senang la dia nak berbual ngan aku en.

Aku ni sebenarnya memang bukan jenis orang yang mudah ' open-up' untuk berkawan dengan orang yang berlainan jantina. Orang punya first impression terhadap aku biasanya macam [ pendiam,baik (sbb x pernah ckp dengan boys)] ha itulah.

Tapi sekarang ni bila ada seorang kawan lelaki,aku jadi risau. Aku selalu layan dia teruk2 tau. Aku ni jenis cakap  kasar-kasar. Mak aku pun kata aku gangster. Kawan aku pun kata suara aku macam jantan. So,aku punya style ni bukan ala-ala keperempuanan sangatlah.

Aku selalu la cakap kasar dengan dia. Contohnya dia tanya aku, markah periksa kau berapa? Aku jawablah, 'kau sibuk kenapa,ish pergilah ko'. Itulah biasanya apa yang akan terkeluar daripada mulut aku,setiap kali dia tanya score aku berapa. Kadang-kadang rasa kesian tu ada gak,tapi aku tak suka 'share' markah aku dengan orang lain.. Aku malu la markah aku lagi rendah daripada dia.Takkan nak 'share' kot. Nanti karang dia fikir cam ' ohh boleh kalahkan dia ni'. Aku tak nak la macam tu..

So,bila aku balas macam tu kat dia,aku rasa risau. Takut dia sedih dengan attitude aku. Lepastu,aku share lah dengan mak aku. Aku ingat mama nak back up aku,tapi mama back up dia pulak. Mak aku kata,kenapa tak layan dia baik-baik, mama kesian tengok dia, dia tu anak yatim, ayah dia selalu busy kerja, bff dia semua dah pindah boarding school,so dia try lah cari kawan baru,ni Nana pulak jual mahal kat dia,janganlah anggap dia nak tackle Nana , nanti bila susah baru nak baik-baik dengan dia,mintak tolong dengan dia.. euww apakah itu?? Mamaaa!!!

Maka,selagi aku tak jumpa dia , dan cakap elok-elok. Selagi itulah,aku dihurung rasa bersalah. So guys,apa yang patut aku buat sekarang ni??